Lizz Mears

Back in 2015, I decided I wanted to create my very own set of Colouring Pages! They were becoming ALL.THE.RAGE & I wanted to find a way to get people using the joy of colouring & art to calm the crazy talk of Anxiety and Mental Health Challenges. I knew that for me, being creative is the best way to relax, quiet my mind and feel like I’ve achieved something even if that was all I’d managed that day. So, I selflessly (oh it was such a chore !)  threw myself into designing these pages! They took me about one month if that, to complete. I adored the process of thinking up ideas, sketching them out. Rubbing them out and starting again. Then inking them in with an ultra fine Sharpie (my fav pen of choice, I think I should get shares in Sharpie!!). Back then I operated under the name of MidSummerLily and solely shared my creative work. Selling my Art through Etsy and my Facebook page. I set out to create an actual real life book but found it ...

Yes, yes, I know! It’s another person chattering on about journaling and it’s benefits! But bear with me. Do you remember being young and having lots of spare time to do as you please? Yeah, your parents were ALWAYS telling you do stuff you didn’t want to do like helping with the chores and tidying your bedroom! Now you’re an adult you realise you had loads of free time, the things you were asked to help with weren’t that bad really! As a teenager, I’d lay on my bedroom floor of an evening, listening to music and out would come my diary. Forever Friends was a favourite brand I had! The tales my diaries could tell! The love struck me, when friends were not my friends anymore, the next day we’re thick as thieves again!  So, and so said this today. I hate X,Y,Z with a passion. Boy, did I let it out! F-bombs, truth bombs and downright pissed off passages is what came out of me! It helped. I can literally still feel the release now when I think back about those years ...

  Artist ♥  Mum ♥ Free Thinker ♥ Weirdo      So you wanna know who I am? ♥   I’m 37 years old! I live on the beautiful South Coast of England, in Poole, Dorset. ♥   I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder at the age of 11. ♥   I spent the next 3 years seeing a psychologist, psychiatrist or therapist every single week. ♥   At the age of 14~ Whilst at my Aunts house, my Mum explains to me that she is taking me to a special children’s hospital for mental health treatment. I remember screaming at her that she didn’t want me, I was awful, I may as well die as my mum didn’t even want me around.  I clearly see myself running and launching myself onto my cousin’s bed and burying my head in the pillows, feeling so empty and distraught. ♥   And so begins my first ‘In-Patient’ stay at a young person’s psychiatric hospital. ♥    I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times since the age...

Oh how my life has changed since my last post! Firstly I cant believe how long it has been since my last blog.....over a month! That really speaks volumes about the changes that have been afoot in my life. In this past month I have started having Hypnotherapy, Ive been continuing with my psychology (which is nearly over) and we have gained a family member in the form of a pony! Yes a PONY!! Introducing Mouse ! ******************************************************************************************************** Psychology~ This time around has finally been focusing on the stuff behind my OCD and Depression.  The reasons why I am obsessive rather than just treating the OCD alone. I am truly finding it beneficial, I have waited years for a therapist to ask me the questions I have been asked and to invite me to look at things from a different perspective. I am learning the cycles of behaviour in my family both good and bad. The reasons we all react in the way we do ...

This week I've realised that I am NOT OK.... Im not ok, Im not ok, Im not ok, Im not ok, Im not ok, Im not ok, Im not ok. I may look ok to the outside world but I'm not ok. I may look like I've got my shit together, but, I'm not ok. I may have a wonderful Art business & just launched my new colouring pages, but, I'm not ok. I've got a wonderful fiance and two beautiful children, all of them I love more than myself. Im not ok. I've got a lovely home, living in a great area, opposite from my best friend,but, I'm not ok. It's ok to not be ok. It doesnt mean Im not entirely grateful for all of the great things and people in my life. The people in my life are wonderful, amazing and make me happy to be alive. They are the ones who help me get up each day, they give me strength to push forward when I'm not ok. I'm still not ok though, OK? I'm still fighting a long battle in my head. I fight with myself about whether I c...

This is something that really gets on my nerves! I get so cross when I see it on tv, social media or in the 'real world' someone saying they 'are so OCD'! Gah! Why, oh why, do people feel its ok to use it as an adjective? I mean you and I know its not...right? You don't go around saying 'oh god i feel so bad, I'm totally cancerous' Nope you dont nobody says it!  'Oh my gosh Im soooo in an anaphylactic shock right now? ( my son is allergic to peanuts) Leukemic? Diabetic? Motor Neurone Diseased?  Nobody says these words as an adjective because...well, it's just plain rude and ignorant isn't it!? This is the kind of nonsense I see on social media ALL the time! I think one of the biggest culprits is... THE MEDIA. (Not all media, but sadly the most predominant offences are made by mainstream tv) It's the media's portrayal, I'm sure someone just started it for a laugh but what they've actually created is a Mo...

Time To Reflect... What was I doing?........ Ok. S o.... I've made it to the blog... Yes!  I've posted out my parcels, drunk coffee, maybe sneaked a small galaxy ripple heehee, I've found some awesome websites on the the t'internet of fabulous biz ladies! (oh ok that wasn't on my to-do list but Facebook made me do it!). Lovely Leonie!  www.leoniedawson.com and gorgeous Kate!  www.katenorthrup.com I really need to get my shit together... all this procrastinating is doing me no good.  I think I'm just feeling nervous about getting my stuff out there?! Is anybody going to like it? is anybody going to actually read this? Helloooo!  Is this even possible?  Do people really want my ideas on living an awesome life after Mental Health Problems?  I'm back in that 'unworthy' feeling again! agh!  No its cool I can do this!  As soon as I get my thoughts going on this 'ere laptop, things st...